t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Monday, February 02, 2004
hmm. i promised myself a proper update on muh blogger. just for the sake of those who read my blog. and yet wasn't exactrly updated bout what's been going on since.. 21 jan.
well. lets see.
23rd jan
broke up. that's just the gist. nothing much to mention about. for the sake of certain people. which MIGHT be innocent parties. i shall not mention any names yeah. =) bascially. just a clear change of heart. a big fat lie. and the whole world lying to me on the whole. is there a need for me to elaborate more? ha.. well.. i don't think so. i guess. don't feel like bringing it up again.. since.. its kinda all in. the. past. =) yeaP. hm. stead. kris son. leisha. cheryl baby. daph. and jenny pts came over for visiting. well.. poor them ended up watching me cry. howl.. and scream at 6+4. haha. blah. i feel like a fool still. wait. i already am one. well.. *shrugs. didn't go down monks that night. and i thank god for it. i need not hear her words and confuse them with whatever she was doing at monks. ANYWAYS. its none of my biz anymore. is it? =))
24th jan.
ha. unique date. shall not elaborate 'case i get skinned for it or something. nic.. iverson.. pl.. jenny.. leisha.. rayne.. and all came over fer steamboat.. hung around.. was kinda irritated at first but it ended up alright. talked. ate ALOT. had peeps peeling prawns fer meh. had a helluva time of the.. year? so far? ha. yeah. but once again. it turned ugly after dinner. history repeated itself. so i CRIED again. *boo hoo. portia's a cry baby* screamed shouted and blah blah. don't need anyone wants to know the exact details too.. cos its.. kinda a drag. basically. just felt. hurt. deceived. cheated. commentless. and torn. totally. ha. thus the endless tears. blahs. i'm useless. full stop. ha. mummy came for a while and stayed till iverson and rayne went off too..
rest of the days were so-so. on and off. should get what i mean yeah? =))
30th jan.
hmm. was an alright day at school. interestinf conversations and all... *winks and tiffane and ber* but hm. turned sour during free period. mental breakdown AGAIN. ha. told ya i'm a loser. sighs. yeah. felt damn lousy after that. hung around wit.. tiffane.. ber came.. and well. jae-n yeh yeh came and met me.. so.. we went off to meet ian daddie.. walked her back.. and went cine to sit and talk.. ha.. crapped bout tons of stuff. left bout 7. and i headed home! ha. sneaked out and rushed down ta monks. man. did i mention how MUCH i miss that place? blah. =| sighs. oh well. met rayne.. iverson.. amy.. kris.. elton.. sam.. sean.. jerome.. freezie? uh.. and etc.. az er zi was there too.. oh.. so was travis.. ha.. yeah.. made friends with leon's friends? hmm. the rest is mystery. shall not exactly reveal. but got.. kinda emo. due to certain stuffs. ha. yeah. tonned at merlion with the whole buncha them.. was fun on the way.. had fun! =) hmm. ha. came home and realised someone backstabbed me? called my mum up and informed her bout me sneaking out ta go clubbing. grrs. so now. i'm not able to go every week. BAH BAH BAH. nevermind. i should - c o n t r o l - CONTROL. =) hmm. yeah.
hmm. been stoning. rotting. msging cute person. *don't get me wrong. just small and interesting* lol. catching up wit my bestie! *OF COS! =D * and stuffs. hmm. yeah. nothing much more i can update.. visited nicky and my gramps yesterday.. had a really long chat with nicky once more. but i didn't cry. =)
so i managed to chase 6+4 away. am prouda myself. despite it all. ha. i'm still a loser. and a fool. blah.....
Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No
[Verse 1:]
See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel
[chorus:]
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
[verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Ya questioned, did i care?
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i do admit i'm sad.
It hurts real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
[Until the end]
;elysium.
10:37:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
